Believing Him Even When It's Hard

I think somewhere down the line of walking with Jesus, I became flippant of His sovereignty.  Of course, I would never say that, nor do I think that my actions suggested a general disinterest in having God lead me.  I mean, everybody ebbs and flows with his or her quiet time.

Believe Him.

My thoughts would be on God, but not because I was in love with my Saviour. My thoughts were on the God of the universe, wondering what the heck He is doing with my life and how He plans to show up.  They weren't accusatory in tone or nature.  I just needed to know.  I have a tendency when life gives me an overwhelming amount of obstacles and no foreseeable outcome to micromanage everything, asking God to provide but at the same time figuring out possible solutions.  I know that time and time again my God has provided everything I needed in His precise timing and in His unique ways that literally had nothing to do with me.  He provides outside my abilities and capacity so that there is absolutely no way that I can take credit, and I know that He is God.

Believe Him.

I was reading something by Beth Moore recently, I came across these simple words and they have plagued my mind, challenging me ever since.  I know that I believe in God but do I believe Him?  Is He my Provider, Redeemer, Lover? Am I cared for, redeemed, His beloved?  I forget that saying I believe in Him, means that I am saying yes to all these questions.  That I believe these things about God and that He is who He says He is and can do what He says He can do.

Believe Him.

 I forgot to believe Him.  I didn't take Him at His word, which were backed by actions.  He sent Jesus to die on the Cross for me!  I have been sorted out for eternity, able to enter into a relationship with a mighty and Holy God through the death and resurrection of His son.  Nothing is reliant on me.  He has everything covered in my life big and small.  He is constantly reminding me of that, especially when He gives me a major shake up demonstrating His authority and how my life is in His loving hands.  This by no means my life is guaranteed smooth sailing, often times I am reminded of who God is through the chaos of life.  It just means I don't have to worry or stress about the unknown.  Right now there is a lot of unknown in my life and my reflex is to worry, stress, and control the outcome, but the Lord is graciously reminding who is in control.    He says He has a plan for me, and I believe Him.